heavy heart?

left the office with something bothering me. i think i got myself all turned around the last couple of weeks. i've confused one thing for another . . . i think. i can't get into details because i have the feeling that i'm over examining things like motive, and i might end up making stuff up in my head just so things fit together.

i figure this 'thing' has been brewing for a while now. no amount of water cooler gossip has distracted me from it. it is starting to feel like quiet desperation but i don't know what can fill in the whole. man, i'd hate to think i'd get my answers from something like the paper's horoscope section.

i have got tho figure this out. its like a scratch i can't get to.